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An Apology to My Readers

Day 6 of 31 Days of Connecting

I’ve been sucked in, again. Sucked into looking at my stats, checking out my followers, spending far too much time (in my opinion) “plugging” my blog when in reality, I don’t think this is what God wants me to do.

I’ve become concerned about my image over the content of my writing.

I’ve become upset over lack of response, when God wants me to respond to Him.

I’ve become preoccupied with this blog, instead of focusing on the work He has most definitively called me to.

When I joined 31 days, I joined to:

  • grow as a writer
  • write every day (so that I learn to write every day – AKA grow as a writer)
  • explore what it looks like to connect with God, self, and others (because it is very connected to my book)
  • join a community of writers on the interwebs

That’s it.

As I joined #write31days, I also joined Twitter. Twitter. The social media platform I said I would never do and really have no interest in… maybe I’ll find it beneficial… maybe.

I have also compromised in spending FAR too much time on this blog – and it has not been worth it. I have not gained and I don’t think you have either.

Also… also, I have lost the vision of sharing myself with you. My reader. And so, I’m sorry.

I do plan on continuing on in this 31 days of Connecting. But I hope to bring to you a bit more soul. A bit more of me.

I really want to bring people closer to Jesus. But I know that unless they see me walking with Him, it’s really nothing but words on a page.

I hope for more for you. More for us.

May God be with us.

I lose my track of my mission in Christ because I get caught up in a popularity contest. What about you? Where do you lose track of your walk with Christ?

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17 thoughts on “An Apology to My Readers

  1. So very beautiful. Yesterday we were talking with some friends about the act of confession. Communing and reconnecting with God all starts with this act, like you have just done, of confessing. We are simple sinners in need of an extravagant Savior. Joy as you bloom where you’re planted!

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    • Thank you, Rachael! One summer I practiced confession as a daily discipline. It was one of the most beautiful times of my life as I finally received forgiveness and was freed from trying to be good enough. I’m grateful you have friends who can share in confession with you. It is so good to be in community with believers. What an extravagant Savior, indeed!

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  2. Leah, thank you! This is so true. So easy to get caught up in the stats. Thanks for the reminder of why I am doing this. 🙂 Blessings on your #write31days challenge!

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  3. Great words and thank you for sharing. I too am on the 31 day journey. I keep reminding myself this is not about perfection. It’s not about stats or looking for more readers and subscribers. As Emily Freeman says, “Start where you are, not where you think you should be.” So, I keep reminding myself of that. Thanks for the reminder today.

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    • Thank you for that quote! I love it. I need to add it to my small (but growing) collection. I hope you are encouraged as you continue in this month!

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  4. Great post! I know exactly how you feel and can get tripped up in the same things. I want to live real life and then write about it…not chase after all the attention and then try and figure out what to write about when nothing is happening in life other than me searching through the web for blogging connections. I’m looking forward to your future posts.

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    • Thanks for sharing, Samantha. What a strange life we writers lead, isn’t it? It is tempting to try to make something out of “nothing” or to feel pressure to invent meaning in each shadow. Praying you can relax and live!!

      I will check out your blog later today. Right now I need to write!

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  5. I’m being sucked down that demoralizing rabbit hole as we speak and I didn’t even DO 31 days! Sigh. My ability to let it go and just enjoy the writing comes and goes and I’m so grateful there’s grace and mercy for that. Blessings as you turn back again to your calling and purpose. Thanks for linking with Unforced Rhythms!

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    • Thanks, Karen! I’m glad it was so helpful. I’m glad you asked. It’s so much better to ask than to sit in the dark, discouraged. (Speaking to myself…)

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  6. I hear you!! I have been feeling the same way. Distracted by the comments, wanting to keep them coming, losing sight of what I was wanting to accomplish when I started this challenge… Thanks for your honesty here!

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